one thing that keeps me from falling for you, is i'm truly alone and i like it

i don't want this anymore. for the longest time i thought i did. it was all i wanted and now i feel, nothing. you're so lovely. you're kind, and you're sweet and you make me laugh. but maybe you were just a distraction from something that i lost. i don't know... i'm confused and i like being alone. a feeling i haven't been able to feel in years. i'm sorry.