i'm feeling pain, think it's still you

i never really realize how much i miss you until i see you and i just know that you'd rather be with someone else. it hurts so bad and i can't stop blaming myself.. i lost you. i'm not okay and this doesn't seem to be getting any easier for me. i wish things turned out differently. i'm getting really tired of crying all the time, i just want everything to go away.. this feeling. i can't explain it, but it sucks. i miss you. i love you.