i can be elusive if you want me to

i'm tired of hiding behind walls and closed doors. i've tried everything and i just can't comprehend as to why i stick around, why i wait for something that is so far gone. your constantly on my mind and it kills to know that i'm the last on yours. it's constant back and forth and i'm sick of pretending that this is the end when we both know it's not. it never is. every day you make me feel like more and more of a burden on you, every day you break heart and i just don't know how much more i can take before i completely crumble.